Saturday, November 14, 2009

A pledge to creativity...

So I suppose I had a day today that left me feeling prompted....

Prompted to live a life that produces visual and emotional evidence that I am utilizing the things around me to think outside the box and live off of the beaten path.

Do you ever feel torn when you see other people's lives unfolding from a distance? While I wholeheartedly admire people's successes, feel for their losses and appreciate people's random humor, I can't help but wonder if I'm living to my potential.

For instance, I LOVE the two yards across the street from my future house (yay!). But today, instead of spending the day outside in the yard, I watched countless hours of Cold Case Files (don't get me wrong, a day well spent if you ask me). To give myself credit, I did mow the lawn, I just didn't go to the extra effort to pull weeds or do anything to better our yard. And the only reason I actually did that was because I didn't want to get judged by our neighbors who have told us they "appreciate" when we do the yard....whoa I think I feel a rant coming on! But all this to say, I had the opportunity to make "more" of our yard, but I did just what I needed to to get by.

No more "getting by" for me, people. (That sentence makes me laugh because there are no people who know about this blog.)

I am at a very important point in my life right now. This next year will even further determine what type of woman I will be. I will be a new wife! This is the most joyous anticipation and I absolutely can not WAITTTTTT to marry Justin. At the same time, I want to make sure that I am not just bringing "enough" to the table. He deserves someone absolutely outstanding and I hereby pledge to remember every single day to bring more to the table.

Writing all of this down kind of scares me, because of how seriously I take this pledge. Because how embarrasing for someone to read this and then look at me 2, 5, 10 years later and see a person who settled. But let me note, I am a very light-hearted person and 9 times out of 10, I will try to make light of a situation. So this heavy pledge to be better, I fully intend on having fun to become this woman.

After a day of stalking people (aka reading blogs for hours upon end), I feel charged to make an honest effort to nurture my creativity. So that I love Justin creatively. And love my family creatively. And so that I love myself creatively.

I guess through things like Facebook, gossip and random run-ins you see people's lives in a nutshell and it all seems so perfectly compact and put together. I'm sure when people look at my life, they see a lovely little life, too. But I want to actually have that full life.

So here goes nothin! My plan is to write in this blog on Tuesdays (ugh, to add something good to the worst day of the week) and not that I plan to address this with each post, but perhaps it will help me remember what made me want a blog to begin with.

To be creative!!

1 comment:

  1. You're off to a great start! We laughed out loud when we read your comment about how there are actually no people who know about this blog. Now I can keep up with what's going on in your life! Love you...